Do you ever doubt yourself? You know, those creeping thoughts that make you wonder if you are doing the right thing...surely someone else could do it better....I'm not capable..do you ever have those thoughts? Well, I have been having these thoughts for some time when it comes to some of our schooling. I am thankful that when it occurs, God usually shows me what is true right away and He always sends me down the path I need to get the assistance for the situation at hand. For example, last year I knew I had taken on more than I could swallow teaching the middle school Chemistry class when I saw a couple of the lessons. I had to stop the negative speech and ask for help. So I asked my dad, a retired chemist, to come in and teach with me. He did great! The kids loved him and I felt great knowing they understood the material!
My recent issue involves some struggles in learning with one of my girls. She just has never been able to catch on quickly in some areas and it worries me some. We have a lady at our co-op that is a trained dyslexic tutor and she has worked with her to the point my girl can read very well, but her writing is something that causes me to start that doubting junk in my head. I hate that that is where my head goes. Why do I allow that trash in my head? I know that God has called me to do this job at this time for as long as He says to do it. I also know, just like in the past, He always brings up the exact person or people I need to help complete the needed task. So, once again, God is good and reminded me of a respite...a life saver....a dear friend. Truthfully, she is my mom's best friend, who also taught for years before retiring not terribly long ago. We have been family friends since I can really recall. She helped me in the past and I had not thought to ask for help again. I know she tutors children in this area so not sure why I waited. Could it be pride? I hate asking for help! Regardless, I just got off the phone with her and the plan is set in motion. You know what is going through my head now? Thank you, Jesus! Help is on the way!!!
I must realize that I can not do this job of educating our children alone. I can not tackle it all alone. I need help. I need wisdom from people who have walked this path before me. I need support from friends and family who understand that while they may not agree with our choice to home school, they respect our choice to do so and want to see us succeed. So, tonight I am grateful for my mom's best friend, who our children graciously refer to as GrannaNana. :) In my book, GrannaNana rocks! Thanks my friend! :)